I wanted to clarify some things on the recent Blog I wrote about my troubles with BP. I wanted to let you know why I really ended up deciding upon writing that Blog. You see for me, I believe there is a process to this life we all live. There is a consistent path there to assist you in times of contrast. A path that never leaves you, never strays, never goes off into the woods. A path that you may not be able to see all the time, but it is always there.
I wanted to share this Blog with you because I wanted to tell you that you all have the answers you want in life. You all have the answers to what you think you need in life. I say this because I know of this now. I needed this contrast in my life to prove to myself that I could trust the process, trust the path, and simply walk down it. I didn't need a drug, a sport psychologist, a shrink, nobody. All I needed was to learn how to trust myself, love myself, listen to myself and have confidence in myself. In no way am I saying that people don't need assistance or that assistance is not a good thing. Not true, assistance is an amazing thing along the path of life, but it is not supposed to be a dependency.
When I truly decided I was going to get over this "Yips" thing, I finally made the decision that I didn't care what others thought about me. I didn't care that I may have looked funny or people were laughing at me or whatever else was going on behind my back. I even remember one day about a year or so ago, having a conversation with a well known man on this topic. You know how sometimes you feel like you have nothing left to give a subject you are trying to fix. You have been working for years and years and it just isn't helping. So you have given up on yourself and you go to anyone in the industry you think can help. You read articles, go to classes, workshops, seek guru's on the subject. Anything to shake the situation you are currently in. Well I did all that. I went to the guy people were all paying money to to help them on the subject. Do you know what he said to me??? He told me that if it is as bad as I am describing it and I was not able to pay the thousands of dollars it would have cost to go through his program, then I should simply quit. He told me there is nobody who can get better from the position I was in and it would be best to just quit trying.
That is why I wrote the last Blog and am writing this one. There is no impossible, there is just you thinking it is impossible and that is all. I am living proof!! This doesn't mean I am the best BP thrower in the world or that I still don't have thoughts of "OH SHIT" go through my head about the subject. But I found my path, I trusted the process. Each one of you can do the same thing, no matter what the task. The trick is though, you have to do the work.
Now I know I just said you have to do the work and that everyone who just read this Blog said "Yes, hard work is the answer. Determination, motivation, grit, sacrifice" That is not the work I am speaking of. The work I am speaking of is not physical at all. The work I am speaking of is inside yourself, it is emotional work, it is evolving work, it is growing work, it is wanting to be all of who you can be type work. There are all sorts of things out there in this world to "fix" you or "help" you or "solve" you. But the problem I have with most of these things is that they leave you reaching outside of yourself. Again, they give you a drug or an antidote or whatever it is they are offering. But there is one thing they are all missing, they never teach us how to be us. How to be all of who we are. How to trust our intuition. How to trust our emotional guidance. How to build our foundation and knowledge from the inside out. That is why I wrote this Blog. I wanted people to understand that this life is an inside job, not an outside job. All you have to do is have some patience and trust the process, learn the process. And nobody can tell you ultimately how that is for you. That is your job. Nobody truly knows how you feel or where you are on certain subjects, you are the only one who truly knows. That is why we need to start looking at things from the inside out. Stop fishing for the quick fixes and learn yourself. Sure, it may take a bit but it may not. And once you truly figured out your own process to make things work for you, it never changes. You will have that forever no matter what you do in your life. To me, that makes it worth the "work".
Ok, no more soap box for now. Hope all is well in your pitching world and I am sure we will talk soon. Keep pitching!!!